I have four wonderful children. I’m so proud of Georgia, she’s doing so well at college. I love to see her with her father. The way she flies into his arms on a return home from school. And Caleb, whatever divine intervention spurred him on to his chosen path, he is flying towards the honor roll now. The school head doesn’t know what’s come over him. He rushes around like a crazy person trying to achieve the best grades and recommendations to go to med school. But he never fails to stop, kiss his little sisters or to hug me. He always says ‘love you Mom’ instead of goodbye. And the little ones, Caitlyn and Zoe. They really are two little peas in a pod. I wish their father had more time to spend with them. He’s missing out on so much cuddling before bed time. But Calvin’s just so busy with the clinic.
I miss my brother, Darryl. I miss him a lot. Cal is still very angry and he’s so … I don’t know how to describe what he is like at the moment, he changes from one minute the next. Its hard to know if I’m doing the right thing or not. But he’s not always like that. Some days he’ll come home from work and he has roses for me, or chocolates, or something more extravagant like jewelery. He’ll kiss me like he hasn’t seen me in weeks and he makes my body shiver with delight, because I know from the way he holds me or the way he touches me as though I might break, and I just know that he loves me more today that he did the day on the beach when he asked me to marry him.
That’s what brings me joy.
All that unconditional love.